My computer is very old. Very. Older than any...

My computer is very old. Very. Older than any other electrical equipment I use. I recently attempted to upgrade it with a slightly more modern operating system, but it failed three times.

I lost some files and all my software. Each failure took over ninety minutes, so I was losing patience.

For the fourth attempt, I crafted the above sigil. Now, the trick is, in chaos magick, the sigil needs to be engulfed by the subconscious mind without interference from the conscious mind going ‘oh you-I really want this to work oh my gods oh my gods you-I want this so bad nnnng’.

So chaotes forget the intention, the desire behind the sigil, and memorise / breathe in the sigil without knowing what it’s for.

I usually take a few days to ‘let go’ of any sigil I’ve scrawled or painted, but how can I use a sigil (in the chaos magick mode) immediately?

On this occasion I got down on the floor and did some press-ups while staring at the sigil. I focused on all the signals my body was giving me (screaming for surrender, mostly) and the contours and paths of the sigil. Although I ‘knew’ it was to help my OS installation, after three failures I was happy to accept that my little machine wasn’t capable of being upgraded, and I was able to adopt a ‘neither-neither’ state of mind; I neither mourned the inability to upgrade nor wanted the newer operating system desperately. It didn’t really matter; I’d have to install all my software again whatever happened.

Oh and you guessed it, I’m now typing this using a more modern OS and my little old computer is coping well - fourth time’s the charm!

P.S. I’m using an old slow computer to help me conquer my unhealthy ‘need’ to be online all the time. My big fast computer is in storage right now. I must be clean and clear for my Abramelin Operation, which continues (thanks for asking).